today is monday.

yup my off day lor.

kinda bored leh.

no one date me out.

seems like no one is free.

staying home whole will only increase my laziness and piggyness.

eat more and slp more.

-_-

online surf net only can do those limited stuffs.

post blog.

read blog.

check mail.

friendster.

wat else can i do online?

and im not the kind of playing online game.

wah.

sian ah!!

someone save me pls!!

haa.

im not worrying abt my next monday.

coz i already had a date with u.

u are finally FREE~!!

hee.

all the best wor!!

(:

haiya.

see lah.

wat the hell i wan?!

work i say tired.

nv work i sae sian.

anyone can just tell me wat shld i do.

hais.

i miss you.

one more week has ended.

time really flies.

tmr is the month of may le.

really getting older and older each day.

but do i look TAT old?

i got 1 regular customer who asked me am i married.

how many kids i have.

is like...

WAT THE HELL LOR~!!

well is alright tat she sae i looked married or wat.

but her second qns real SHOCKED me like nobody business.

'HOW MANY' kids i have?!

wah~

feel like fainting in my lobby at tat point of time man.

lucky she is one of our regulars.

lucky she is a pregnant mother.

if not i dunno wat will i do to her.

haa no lah.

im not tat bad.

im a good girl.

-_-

well anyway.

jun was telling me tat if i got the chance to be promoted to SAE.

i might as well go for it and try.

yup think i will if i really got the chance.

(:

i received letter form nyp saying abt my graduation ceremony.

kinda excited like tat leh.

lol.

its on 5july 1pm.

wana come and see me wear the graduation suit?

all come leh!!

think will be fun man.

haa.

but think will be sad too.

hmm maybe not sad.

more towards touching ba.

will i be crying on tat say?

hmm reminds me of bartley graduation.

still no letter from ntu and nus.

no more hopes?

waiting for rejection letter?

just wait and see ba.

although the time we spent together is less.

we will still feel the love for each other at all times.

we will still hold our hands together to complete the journey of our life.

i promise i will be a good girlfriend k?

(:

well as wat had happened to me during the past week.

i felt tat the past week is a disaster week for me.

as a new week had begins 4hrs ago.

wish me all the best in the new week ba.

i wana be happy.

surprizes hopes and wishes come true can?

den i can be the most xing fu girl liao.

=P

27 april 2007 'suppose' to be a day tat im looking forward since 15 march.

coz i had been going ard and telling ppl tat im going for a 4hr cruise with my company.

yup finally there is a STAR outing since 5 to 8yrs ago.

during these 6weeks and 1 day i had been so damn excited abt it.

i had already said 'suppose' to be a happy one.

but somehow i brought my worryness and sadness up to the cruise.

i still managed to enjoyed myself.

with the funnie emcee.

with the fun games.

with the funniest entertainment shows by our business managers.

with the buffet although i only had 1 round of food coz just dont feel like eating.

with the dance floor disco.

with 1 glass of white wine.

with 10mins of karaoke.

the most impt 1 is the graduation ceremony.

yup.

we all STARs had graduated from level 1.

we got our class photo.

we got our certificate.

we got our pin.

we saw our new uniform.

kinda cool.

another thing tat im looking forward now.

yup.

really thank all of our SAEs.

bosses.

business managers.

business consultants.

and whoever put in the effort, time, , money, countless proposals and bla bla bla.

to let us shine.

to let us enjoy thoroughly during the 4hrs.

without them putting in all these.

we are just NOTHING.

yup.

reallie thank from my bottom of my heart.

(:

aft the cruise.

went home with irene.

ya.

she just live few block away from mine.

she is the event manager.

so wat so ever event she is the one who plan it.

including of cruise outing.

hmm.

had a sort of 'heart-to-heart' talk with her.

like im talking to my boss.

kinda stress.

but told her watever is in my heart.

watever i think of.

ya.

felt much more better.

aft the talk with her.

i really found out tat i so love my store.

everything will think for my store.

nv think for myself.

hais.

actually is a bad thing.

to get promoted to SAE is not a bad idea though.

but.

but..

but...

for me there is just endless of butsss...

anyway.

i will reallie demoralise if she got promoted.

although she is my good friend.

its not the matter of jealousy.

is demoralising.

well it had been abt 2mths ever since i go out supper with them.

hmm.

wat can i describe myself.

im a sensative girl who always have contrudicting feelings.

hais.

when they did not call me out i felt left out.

when they call me out this time round i felt bad.

yup.

indeed i really felt so BAD.

den i found out tat.

different status going out got different feelings.

REALLY VERY sorry tat made u felt disappointed in me.

i really dunno wat else can i do or say other then saying sorry.

im really scared.

im really fear.

im really worried.

still rmb wat i had promised u?

as wat i had said.

a promise means is a promise.

i said it out i will make sure i will do it.

if not i can go bang wall and die.

well since its over le.

no point for me to look back.

and definately im not regretting.

coz if i were to choose to regret anything.

first i will choose to regret is.

y am i here in this world?

so just stop talking abt regretting.

hais.

i so damn hope and wish tat im really thinking too much.

till now i still dont have confidence in myself too.

hais.

wat shall i do to gain more confidence in myself?

missing you is wat i will be doing every day every hr every min every sec.

yup.

its onli you.

now is 0200hrs.

and im still up.

onli i will noe the reason y.

i dunno y.

i just felt left out.

i felt alone.

hais.

i dunno they meant it or not.

i oso feel tat im being used by my friends.

hais.

i dunno lah.

mayb im over too sensative le ba.

i tend to be more sensative when im damn tired.

ya.

im damn tired now after work.

-_-

well im just a little girl who wants a little bit more attention.

i hope to see surprises.

but ended up are disappointments.

no matter wat i try to look at the bright side.

is tat a stupid act?

depends.

sometimes it is.

i will leave all the sadness aside and start a new day tmr.

tmr will be a brand new day for me.

sm:)e and be happie~!!

just off from work.

todae i worked 8hrs.

but it seems i had worked for 80hrs.

so damn tired.

dont ask me y.

i oso dunno y.

haa.

chatting with my ai ren.

missing her.

till i cant slp.

lol.

dunno she still got visit my blog or not.

ai ren must visit my blog ohh.

hee.

=p

haiya we really must meet up one day lor.

be it the 2 of us or with the rest.

hee.

missing you~

today is monday.

my off day.

tot every mon can go out and slack with friends.

but not today ba.

i had slept for 17hrs.

coz i had been awake for 44hrs.

went out to ton on sat night.

continue to work on sun without any sleep.

was so damn sleepy and tired.

i dunno i had yawn how many times when im working.

well but towards evening.

i really hope tat tat is not the way to make me stay awake.

but i think the fact it is.

hais.

thanks audrey for giving me excellent for my performance report.

resulting in an increase in my hourly rate.

thanks fred who look high on me.

willing to pay me 1.6k per month.

ya.

now hafta see how's the result of my entry to uni.

den fred will make his decision.

im really having a secured job.

im not afraid of losing job or retrench.

coz mac is always lack of employees.

haa.

my junior derrick just msn and send me their pieces they played for their syf this year.

sadly they got bronze this year.

only 16 got gold.

well im like missing those band days.

):

i really hope tat wat is mine will always be mine.

okie?

our friendship wont get apart just coz of tat.

if tat really will cause our friendship to get apart.

i wont agree to tat in the first place.

(:

5 weeks 4 days.

still counting on always.

=P

ytd night went chomp chomp with dolly and lisa.

let me list out wat the THREE(3) of us ate.

1) 2 plates of hokkien mee
2) 1 plate of Sotong
3) 1 plate of kangkong
4) 1 plate of sting ray
5) 2 pieces of chicken wing
6) 4 stick of satay
7) 1 bowl of beancurd
8) 1 plate of fried oyster
9) 1 plate of rojak
10) 2 extra large sugar cane

LOL.

=D

amazing?

haha.

aft we ate.

we frm there walked to near st. gabriel's sch.

haha.

far hor?

dunno y we can just do all those amazing stuffs.

haha!!

den we took a cab from there home.

actually wanted to walk home.

but its TOO wu loo for us to walk.

plus lisa and me work since morning.

damn tired liao.

still walk home?

think will lie flat halfway.

lol.

=D

enjoyed myself to the max with the 2 of them always.

although added ALOT of fats and calories.

=x

bosses travel in my store today.

jeffery, my market manager asked me interested to become manager or not.

its like a -DUH- qns.

if got the chance of coz i will grab lah.

well see how ba.

aft 5yrs of hardwork.

really hope to see sth different.

all these still have to go thru my restaurant manager.

my business consultant.

my business manager.

tsk tsk tsk.

stress.

-_-

hmm yup.

finally i willing to go see doctor.

mc for todae.

just slacking at home.

dunno wat to do.

tats y i dont reallie like to stay at home.

its just freaking boring.

i like to be outside.

at least got accompanyment.

yup as usual.

i HATE to be left ALONE.

tats me and always will be me.

ur heart hurts.

hey.

my heart do hurts too.

im a human.

im not cold blooded.

im not heartless.

i noe how to think.

i noe who treat me nice.

i noe who is nasty to me.

a promise means is a promise.

just go and ask ard.

i hate ppl who break promise.

unless i hate myself.

my feelings got cheated before too.

maybe not as worst as urs.

but i noe the feelings of got cheated is sux.

is like everything is ending.

i reallie feel like dying at tat point of time.

reallie thanks those who help me to overcome it.

i fell and i had learnt to get up and walk again.

i reallie dunno wat else can i prove it to u.

facta non verba.

deeds not words.

actions speaks louder than words.

yup.

we shall see.

happily in love.

hee.

=P

well.

wat can i start with?

wat will i start with?

todae is the first dae of a new week.

i had said.

i hope this week will be a great one.

so i will try my best to be happy.

everybody seems like wana gathering.

haa.

im meeting my jies on thurs.

full attendance?

i dunno.

as usual i dont care.

i will just attend when there is a gathering.

i dont wana let iris feel bad.

imagine u organise a gathering.

and damn few ppl turn up.

the feeling is sux.

well i understand how the feeling is like.

and on the other hand.

dolly kept on asking me when are gg to chomp.

lol.

ya ya.

soon soon.

we will be chomp-ing soon.

by this week k!!

hee.

=P

to take mc or not?

to see doctor or not?

my toe still hurt me like nobody's business.

if i mc tmr.

and i wont be in store on wed and thurs.

but i still got quite a number of tasks undone.

can i be less busy?

y am i so responsible?

y am i having so much passion?

my fault?

in life there is times tat we need to make important decision.

i decide to go grand opening dry run instead of nus interview.

yes im sure everybody will ask me y.

well.

i got my own reason for choosing work ba.

no matter wat will happen in the future.

i hope i wont made the wrong decision.

wish me all the best ba.

(:

anyway reallie hope tat the grand opening will be a great and fun one.

just felt glad and honoured to be 1 of the 9 of them out of total 40 of us.

reallie wanted to go to these kind of big events ages ago.

everytime im not 1 of them.

now there is chance for me.

i wont let it go.

who noes anytime or anything can be my stepping stone for my next level?

actually for me to carry on study.

is a burden to me and to my mother.

to work while study is freaking not easy.

ppl ard me can hooray hooray during weekends.

hu haa outside.

chilling with friends.

shopping at orchard.

but me?

i had been spending my 5yrs of weekends working.

just to support myself and my mother.

and my i still owe the bank a few k coz of my poly fees.

if i reallie continue to study uni.

how much money will i owe the bank?

how much time will i need to return them?

so seriously shit to think far for myself and my mother and perhaps my brother.

i reallie cant afford to study uni.

(:

i believe in this chinese saying.

'xian ku hou tian'

somehow i dont mind suffer during young age.

all i hope for is i can enjoy my life when im old.

no need to fan abt money.

coz seeing those old uncles and aunties in my store still work.

reallie feel sad for them.

i will reallie prove it to u.

(:

i dont know.

i dont know..

i dont know...

i just feel like crying.

hais.

suet ah u are over too sensitive le.

suet ah u are thinking too much.

suet ah u are abit too much.

reallie sound like me right?

yup im trying my best and trying hard to get rid of my those bad points.

the past week seems like a disaster week.

hope the coming new week will be a great one.

hope i will feel better.

(:

im reallie glad tat there is ppl out there who reallie care abt my feelings.

coz im always tot tat im the left-out child.

im just a NOBODY.

thank YOU~!!

i reallie appreciate the caring-ness tat ppl gave me.

hmm well.

to keep everything to oneself is kinda bad.

if u dont mind im willing to be ur listening ears.

anytime.

anyday.

(:

sorry to show u my pek cek-ness.

i meant no harm.

partly coz of my seriously injured toe.

if i goes to see doctor.

im sure i will get mc.

but dunno y.

i just refuse to go see doctor.

stupid?

maybe lah.

i oso dunno wat will i get for being tat hardworking.

hais.

how to describe sad?

how to describe happy?

when am i reallie sad?

when am i reallie happy?

im at home now.

blogging~

well by right i suppose not to be at home.

i shld be enjoying myself at apit's chalet.

hais but wat to do.

my mother kept on making noise tat i always stay out.

since when tat i 'always' stay out.

reallie made me fed up.

so wat jun talked to my mother ytd night.

ya still have to thanks to her coz she somehow or rather convince my mother.

but my mother oso like dont believe jun.

the worst thing is tat she dont believe.

do u noe wat is the feeling like when ur own mother dont believe her own daughter?

well perhaps u all dunno how the feeling is like.

she just dont trust me AT ALL~!!

this reallie made me real fed up and boil.

hais.

why?!

wHy?!

WhY?!

WHY?!?!

okie.

she is worried abt me.

(:

y am i always feeling the same?

can i dont feel it tat way?

hais~

watever it is.

all i want is history wont happen again.

dunno y im easily committed into sth.

once committed will fall deep into it.

den will be very difficult for me to let go and give up.

if reallie i have to let go and give up.

i will be damn sad and it will hurt me alot.

i failed my basic theory.

nth to be ashame of ba i think.

no more swensens.

-_-

going to rebook it on mon with nina.

i will pass the second try.

i want kfc!

i dont want chicken rice.

lol.

=D

met my crazy pri sch girls.

met dolly first at taka.

den was walking aimlessly while waiting for candice and shanyun.

den the 4 of us went to buy a belated prezzie for lisa.

her bdae was on 2mar.

haa.

den waited for lisa to knock off from work at 630pm at paragon.

den we headed heeren for sakae for dinner.

we are reallie freaking big eaters.

except for shanyun lah.

the 4 of us ate abt 25dishes of sushi.

and some ala-carte dishes.

wow~

candice said tat eating jap food is not fattening.

so next time eat more jap food lor.

haa.

the most shocking thing is.

the bill came out to be $111.

wahaha~!!!

aft discount is $99.

lalala~

aft dinner we went went back to taka and wisma for some shopping.

candice and shanyun bought a tube dress from mango.

and my eyes caught a top there.

reallie like it.

but i just stop myself from spending le lah.

aft tat we 4.

dolly lisa candice and me.

we went back to our favourite hometown aka chap lao for dessert and drink.

haha.

hanging out with them is damn great.

making lots of noise inside heeren.

laughing out loud in the middle of orchard road.

tats y we are ourselves 'crazy 5'.

lol.

i suddenly feel tat im a good girl man.

lol.

as in i did not went out till late midnight le.

lke wat i used to do.

coz tat goondu jun's schedule is like totally different from mine.

i finished work den she start working.

or i just reached store and she's gg home liao.

and oso tat another goondu nina.

i tot i work full time liao at least got nina to acc me to crap during work.

stupid-ly.

she is selected to go to other stores for attachment.

for training for the new dunno watever system.

first she went marina center.

and now she's at east coast park.

ytd she told me she is gg to parkway aft east coast park.

wth lor~

den i ask her when she will be back in kallang.

well..

even she herself oso dunno.

yawns~

somehow or rather im like left 'alone' in the store.

sians~

so u see.

how are we one gang able to go out.

well to think back.

my last outing with them was with ismail.

the last ride i ever had till now.

hais.

is very difficult for me to forget lor.

but on the other hand.

u think i dont wana go out at night meh.

to me.

young must enjoy life mah.

but my mother will nv ever have those 'open' mindset to allow me to have more freedom.

hais.

is reallie ming ku not have freedom lor.

when den i can get my freedom?

21yrs old?

till the day i married?

hais.

i reallie got no idea.

'that's what friends are for'

the sentence is damn meaningfull.

and the song is real nice too.

jun called me early in the morning while im still in my dreams.

she need a favour from me to help her.

hmm well.

somehow dunno y i felt glad tat when she need help she rmb me.

she think of me.

coz i always tot tat she got her other friends and she neglect me.

seems like she is not tat kind of person.

hmm but..

who noes tat when she need help den she will look for me.

other den tat she dont care.

haiya suet ah~

dont think too much lah.

she is my best friend.

she is one of my friends who can understand me more den other friends.

hee.

called her just now.

same routine.

she ans.

she told me tat she will call me back.

but she did not.

for so long i had known her.

out of 10 times of her 'wait i call u back'

she will onli call me back once.

bth her.

as wat shan had tagged.

im 'FINALLY' attached.

ma chiam i got no one want.

yup tats wat i always thinking lah.

im always the swayest one who cant last a relationship long.

den u all one by one got attached.

in the past during gatherings one by one bringing bf along with u all.

somehow or rather left me alone who got no one to bring along.

did u all ever stand in my shoes and think for me?

how is the feeling like?

well think u all dunno how is the feeling is like.

actually i wana tell u all this damn long ago.

i just dunno how to tell u all.

dont have the courage to say it out.

every gathering i reallie have the urge to tell u all tat no guys are allowed.

do not bring bf.

but i did not say it.

somehow i felt tat if i do tat.

im selfish.

so i chose to be sad deep in me rather den to be selfish.

but as time goes by.

more and more gatherings.

i used to the sadness le.

the feeling is numb le.

like wat iris had said.

it had been a damn long time we ever have a 'all girls' gathering.

yup seriously i do miss those daes onli we girls de gathering.

hey~

for wat i had said above i got NO HARM k.

tat was my past feelings le.

as for now.

im happily in love.

lol.

lalala~

hee.

=P

hey ya ya ya.

i noe i damn long nv blog liao.

coz somehow reallie busy with work and everything ba.

well somehow my jies noes it le ba.

im attached.

hee.

knew him aft shan's big day.

met up with dolly and lisa to go nyp support shanyun artwork.

aft we visited shanyun.

we went to kbox plaza to k.

den dolly was saying she's gg pub with her friends.

asked lisa and me to join.

so ok lor.

aft kbox we went pub.

i oso dunno where is it lah.

somewhere ard chinatown i think.

haa.

did not reallie talked to him tat much tat night.

onli until the next morning dolly msg me saying tat he wants my number.

den everything started.

haa.

actually im quite stressed and worried abt this matter.

coz he is the guy tat dolly liked.

hais.

well.

he went to ask dolly will she mind if he jio me.

is like...

den dolly says tat she dont mind.

so everything begins.

(:

i dunno will there be anyone will say anything abt it behind my back.

i dont care.

as long as im happy can le.

ntu called me for an interview for mathematical sciences.

the course tat i put first choice.

reallie dunno hope to get in or not leh.

somehow having a mao dun feeling leh.

hmm.

well well well.

yup.

im back blogging le.

sorry to those who still constantly view my blog but yet i did not update.

yup.

lotsa things had happened.

firstly.

16feb is the day tat i say BYE to nyp.

no more lesson.

no more lecture.

no more tutorial.

no more lab.

no more fyp.

lol.

next.

cny.

same as b4.

went back m'sia.

but sad is my stomach not feeling well.

so actually did not ate so much good food.

but i still ate bak kua.

=x

lol.

yup.

went cameron highlands.

nice place.

shall visit there if got chance again.

next.

came back singapore.

busy doing shopping with my jies.

coz to buy dress for my liu jie's wedding.

(:

yupp!

got 1 from daniel yum.

hmm of coz not forgetting working.

not more school liao.

if nv work.

one day u all will see suet eating grass somewhere.

lol.

working hard of coz not forgetting to relax myself.

occasionally or can say quite often.

i will go out with nina, jun and some of the riders.

to had supper, bowling or sit down somewhere to chill out.

we all went club too.

we went hard rock cafe on bai's bdae.

yup yup.

im glad tat i can reallie clique with them quite well.

at least i wont be left out.

if not life will be damn miserable.

hmm ever since clique with them well.

i start to going home later and later.

opps!

=x

next.

is my shan liu jie's big day~!

7mar.

yup yup.

congrats wor my liu jie!

hope u wont forget ur sis hor!!

i bet u dont dare to forget.

lol.

hmm.

yup.

always rmb.

we will always be by ur side NO MATTER WAT HAPPEN.

(:

of coz not forgetting to take photos.

we took lotsa lotsa photos.

hee.

waiting for yun and iris to send or burn for me ba.

haa.

ohh ya.

another thing is.

recently im damn ON with my pri sch friends.

dolly, lisa, candice and shan yun.

lisa, dolly and me went kbox last night.

den went pub too.

tgt with dolly's friends.

hmm well next.

think is my emo time le ba.

seriously.

life is REALLY unpredictable.

u all see and continue reading.

i went supper with nina, jun and some other riders last sunday.

ismail tong bang me.

we all went to bukit timah for supper.

we all was as usual joking and talking craps.

aft supper.

ismail sent me home.

guess wat?!

this morning jun called me ard 7plus.

to inform me tat ismail pass away.

PASS AWAY?!?!

he's died!!

he met with an accident.

is a hit-and-run!!

heard tat his helmet flew off.

kinda serious.

died on the spot.

is a passer-by who called the ambulance.

he is actually on his way home.

within 5mins he will reach home liao de lor.

den met tat kind of fucking bastard driver.

hais.

jun and almost all the riders and ex-riders went to his hse.

i wanted to go too.

but i got a party gg on.

so did not go.

yup.

sad.

shocked.

unbelievable.

the last time i saw him is tat sunday midnight tat he sent me home.

my last word to him is 'bye'.

and its reallie a BYE.

sobs.

did not see him again coz i did not work from mon to thurs mah.

still can rmb the way he call me.

'ehh~ suet..~'

no more tat face.

no more tat voice.

no more ismail.

hais.

ohh did not tell u all how old is he.

he will be 21 on 24mar.

so he is not even 21yrs old lor.

hais.

so damn young die liao.

he got no illness or anything.

reallie lah.

life is just unpredictable lah.

ismail RIP``

hais next.

tom ma chaim bringing me round and round and round.

leading me to dunno where.

he himself oso dunno where is he heading to.

hais.

well.

i think sometimes somethings are meant to keep it to urself.

not even telling ur closest friend.

(:

well well well.

yup.

im back blogging le.

sorry to those who still constantly view my blog but yet i did not update.

yup.

lotsa things had happened.

firstly.

16feb is the day tat i say BYE to nyp.

no more lesson.

no more lecture.

no more tutorial.

no more lab.

no more fyp.

lol.

next.

cny.

same as b4.

went back m'sia.

but sad is my stomach not feeling well.

so actually did not ate so much good food.

but i still ate bak kua.

=x

lol.

yup.

went cameron highlands.

nice place.

shall visit there if got chance again.

next.

came back singapore.

busy doing shopping with my jies.

coz to buy dress for my liu jie's wedding.

(:

yupp!

got 1 from daniel yum.

hmm of coz not forgetting working.

not more school liao.

if nv work.

one day u all will see suet eating grass somewhere.

lol.

working hard of coz not forgetting to relax myself.

occasionally or can say quite often.

i will go out with nina, jun and some of the riders.

to had supper, bowling or sit down somewhere to chill out.

we all went club too.

we went hard rock cafe on bai's bdae.

yup yup.

im glad tat i can reallie clique with them quite well.

at least i wont be left out.

if not life will be damn miserable.

hmm ever since clique with them well.

i start to going home later and later.

opps!

=x

next.

is my shan liu jie's big day~!

7mar.

yup yup.

congrats wor my liu jie!

hope u wont forget ur sis hor!!

i bet u dont dare to forget.

lol.

hmm.

yup.

always rmb.

we will always be by ur side NO MATTER WAT HAPPEN.

(:

of coz not forgetting to take photos.

we took lotsa lotsa photos.

hee.

waiting for yun and iris to send or burn for me ba.

haa.

ohh ya.

another thing is.

recently im damn ON with my pri sch friends.

dolly, lisa, candice and shan yun.

lisa, dolly and me went kbox last night.

den went pub too.

tgt with dolly's friends.

hmm well next.

think is my emo time le ba.

seriously.

life is REALLY unpredictable.

u all see and continue reading.

i went supper with nina, jun and some other riders last sunday.

ismail tong bang me.

we all went to bukit timah for supper.

we all was as usual joking and talking craps.

aft supper.

ismail sent me home.

guess wat?!

this morning jun called me ard 7plus.

to inform me tat ismail pass away.

PASS AWAY?!?!

he's died!!

he met with an accident.

is a hit-and-run!!

heard tat his helmet flew off.

kinda serious.

died on the spot.

is a passer-by who called the ambulance.

he is actually on his way home.

within 5mins he will reach home liao de lor.

den met tat kind of fucking bastard driver.

hais.

jun and almost all the riders and ex-riders went to his hse.

i wanted to go too.

but i got a party gg on.

so did not go.

yup.

sad.

shocked.

unbelievable.

the last time i saw him is tat sunday midnight tat he sent me home.

my last word to him is 'bye'.

and its reallie a BYE.

sobs.

did not see him again coz i did not work from mon to thurs mah.

still can rmb the way he call me.

'ehh~ suet..~'

no more tat face.

no more tat voice.

no more ismail.

hais.

ohh did not tell u all how old is he.

he will be 21 on 24mar.

so he is not even 21yrs old lor.

hais.

so damn young die liao.

he got no illness or anything.

reallie lah.

life is just unpredictable lah.

ismail RIP``

hais next.

tom ma chaim bringing me round and round and round.

leading me to dunno where.

he himself oso dunno where is he heading to.

hais.

well.

i think sometimes somethings are meant to keep it to urself.

not even telling ur closest friend.

(:

kuku shan!!

im here to update le lah.

lol.

yup yup.

damn long nv update le.

07feb2007, wednesday-

went to jun's bdae chalet.

bought a bad for her.

alot of ppl went there lah.

mostly riders lah.

the bbq onli starts ard 8+ or 9.

its quite late.

but enjoyed ba.

jun was kena thrown into the pool.

den one by one the riders was kena thrown into the pool too.

den they drink.

jun and the riders.

she got drunk.

luckily nina and me did not drink.

if not same drunk like her.

jun really talk rubbish and damn noisy when she is drunk.

did some funny stuffs too.

bth~

we went for night walk ard 6am.

but not really interesting.

08feb2007, thursday-

nina and me went off ard 8++.

imran sent nina back.

and tom sent me back.

yup tom.

tat tom.

haa.

he is really damn funny lah.

and oso damn shy.

the way he talk to me.

the way he look at me.

they way he ask num frm me.

its really funny lah.

haha.

wat will happen next.

i really dunno.

and i dint feel like thinking of it.

hmm.

den reach home ard 9.

lazy to go to mc.

so went to sch lor.

slacked in sch.

did not went out coz was damn tired liao.

09feb2007, friday-

aft sch.

reached home.

while watching tv.

jun called me.

asked me wana go boy's chalet.

haa ok lor.

went to bedok to meet nina.

den nina tongbong shafie's bike.

and i tongbong azri's bike.

reached there.

jun there liao.

suppose to enjoy there.

but ended up was quite boring.

we still stay up to the next day morning.

10feb2007, saturday-

azri dont wana send jun back.

so jun and nina took cab back ard 0070.

tom 'suppose' to send me back.

but ended up azri send me back.

reached home ard 0900.

slept 2hrs plus.

den woke up for work.

went to work like zombie.

haa.

jabo off work ard 2100.

together with nina.

no plan for tat night coz all of us were tired liao.

lol.

den nina took cab and sent me home.

11feb2007, sunday-

woke up early in the morning.

went to temple to pay respect my grandfather.

with my mother, brother and auntie.

den went to work at 1330.

jabo off work ard 2100++ together with nina.

did not went out coz those riders went to hard rock.

nina dont wana go.

den we slacked in store till 2200++.

den went home.

12feb2007, monday-

aft sch went to shan's place for my manipedicures.

june and sandy oso!!

hee.

called piza hut delivery for our dinner.

went off almost 0000.

pics: manipedicures

13feb2007, tuesday-

my final presentation.

was alright.

its finally over le!!

yeah~!!

my PRIMARY SCHOOL gathering!!!

shanyun.

dolly.

candice.

lisa.

and me!!

hee.

=p

asked shanyun to come fetch me ard 1500++.

since i zo bo in sch aft presentation.

we went taka kino de coffee club to wait for lisa.

den met dolly at taka ard 1800.

we went to swensens to wait for candice.

we ordered baked rice for our dinner.

and earthquake for our dessert.

aft our meal.

we walked over to cine for neoprints.

aft tat.

actually wanted shanyun to drive us to esplanade or clake quey to sit down to chat.

we eneded up at nicoll highway.

den at kallang.

my workplace.

lol.

dn we wented to u-turn back to orchard.

coz shanyun onli no how to go back home frm orchard.

but we all ended up at vivo.

LOL.

but luckily she noes how to go back from vivo.

den CTE jam.

but the rest of us are crazy in the car while shanyun was so pek cek over the jam.

she drop us ard yck rd.

dolly, candice, lisa and me took 103 to srg den take 158 home.

haa.

but we went to chap lao hawker for supper.

we had rojak and ice kachang.

den i realised it had past 12am.

VALENTINE'S DAY!!

we had our vday together with our meal.

lol.

den we headed home ard 0030.

pics: 13022007 pri sch gathering

14feb2007, wednesday-

valentine's day?

so what?

hmm.

well.

did not go sch.

coz i will just zo bo there lor.

plus my supervisor went on leave.

so i stayed home.

coz reallie no one date me out.

=(

haa.

thanks for those who wished me although i got no valentine.

yun.

tom.

and catherine.

(:

well as for tmr.

dont feel like gg sch too.

most prob not gg le ba.

haa.

either slacked at home in the afternoon.

coz tmr dinner gathering with my beloved jies!!

see how ba.

maybe gg out before dinner or wat.

haa.

back from town~

tired ok.

met shan at amk station

thanks to her '10mins'.

haa.

we went to far east.

and to look for june.

she working there le.

with sandy.

haa.

bought a bag from there for jun.

tmr her bdae chalet at pasir ris.

den shopped ard.

i bought a shoe too.

suppose to get the same design online de.

but the spree is cancelled.

lol.

its quite cute lah.

=p

den we shopped ard.

saw a top which is pretty nice.

asked the price.

32bucks.

we put back and walked off.

=x

den 2130 le.

june and sandy close store le.

june's danny came.

shan's edwin came.

we all went long john.

aft meal den we headed home.

actually sth happened in sch.

but my eyes are closing le.

nights.

hey!

so sorry my dear friends and jies~!!

had not been blogging for almost a week.

let me recall wat had happened ard me for the past week k.

31012007 wednesday-

went to a ntu talk held in my sch.

yup.

den aft sch went to meet june at srg.

den she acc me to reg my btt.

FINALLY i booked my btt le~!!

its on 30mar.

wish me best of luck k!!

i hope i can go thru everything just ONCE~!!

(:

dont worry.

i will remain all of u to wish me good luck when my test date is near.

hee.

lol.

=p

aft booked my btt.

i called shinyi.

she's at home.

so june and me went back to srg to haf our dinner.

met shinyi.

den we went to the pasar malam there.

den we went to a playground sit there chit chat.

there's swing!!

i LOVE swing~!!

whenever i see swing.

it will remind me of someone.

(:

we 3 chat till ard 2300.

den headed home.

01022007 thursday-

jefflina's bdae!!

(:

i went home aft sch.

to wait for my notebook to be delivered!!

yup and i received it le!!

its black colour.

kinda cool.

but still cant used it to surf net coz i got NO TIME to buy a router.

yup.

i need a router so tat my home pc and my notebook can surf net at the same time.

(:

02022007 friday-

junaina's bdae~!!

siew luang's bdae~!!

hee yup.

=p

i went home aft sch.

had dinner den went to work.

coz there's a party at 8pm.

kinda crazy lah.

lol.

sahhidah is working too.

03022007 saturday-

worked till 0300.

sahhidah dont feel like gg home.

so we ton lor.

chiong with her.

we went 7-11 to get some food and drinks.

we sat somewhere to chat.

reallie felt good to talk to someone late in the night.

esp with someone who is standing on the same boat as you.

someone tat having the smae probs as you.

yup.

den i noe im not suffering alone.

(:

den we walked backed to store ard 0430.

den louise called me abt crew attachment schedule for cny.

wah.

ma chiam i noe how to do schedule like tat.

bcoz she is louise.

bcoz im helping jun.

tats y i will help ah.

if not!

dont gif a damn to it man.

lol.

so bad ah me.

=x

den ard 0500++.

sahhidah and me had our cup noodle breakfast.

den 0600 le.

the overnight crews finish work le.

izwan and md noor asked wana go breakfast wif them or not?

omg~

sahhidah and me just had ours.

so we join them for drinks nia lor.

den met thama at the coffee shop there.

we asked him to join ask too.

yup.

aft breakfast.

thama went to work.

sahhidah walked home as her hse is just nearby.

so md noor, izwan and me took a cab home.

coz they can clim transport mah.

so i tong bang lor.

haa.

reached home ard 0800.

went to slp.

woke up at 1000.

bathed and went to work.

reached store early.

coz i expected sth will happen.

so went early to settle it.

hmm.

den finished work ard 2130.

saw my yuan mei mei again.

haa.

she's damn free lah.

lol.

den nina asked me wana join them to go bowling or not.

at yishun safra.

with apit and gf.

shaffie.

azri.

nina tong bang shaffie's bike.

so i tong bang azri's bike.

he ride DAMN FAST lor.

omg~

and oso no signal at all de.

nina oso agree.

but its kinda fun lah.

(:

we finished our 2 rounds of bowling ard 0200++.

04022007 sunday-

wanted to go haunted house de.

ya.

they reallie like to go haunted places lor.

haa.

but we riding here and there.

up and down.

cant find the place.

so we ended up at one of the chong pang's coffee shop to have a drink.

yup.

headed home aft our drinks.

azri sent me home.

ar bo!!

if no transport home i oso dont wana go chiong at night with them.

lol.

reached home ard 0400.

slp.

woke up ard 1100++.

bathed.

while having my breakfast bought home by my bro.

ayu called me at 1215.

asking me to go store immediately.

think they are crazy or wat lah.

nv see and plan properly.

den ended up im the one who kena.

hafta rushed this and tat.

here and there.

sian de lor.

took a cab to store and claim my transport ah.

went early to conduct a 3hrs party with a fussy customer.

-_-

bth~

den ard 1900 i went to kitchen as pc.

tat idiotic mgr from BQ named winnie.

she got problems with my kitchen crews ah.

just come straight and tell me lah.

went to picked on my crews and went to complaint to joey.

fuck sia.

den joey came and tell me to auto abit.

with this kid of ppl.

joey told me winnie complaint to her nvm.

coz joey oso dont like her.

but if she went to complaint to others den its not very nice mah.

ya.

ok lor.

joey oso bth her lah.

asking all sort of idiotic qns.

saying this and tat.

i at the side hear liao oso bth.

hope she is just attach to my store ah.

if she transfer here.

before she got the chance to complaint me.

i will make sure she work in our store till lie flat on the ground ah.

finished work at 2130.

den walked out to bus stop tgt with nina.

yup went home.

yeah!

daren won!

singapore won the ASEAN cup too!!

congrats!

(:

before i goes to talk abt todae the new week.

let me do some conclusion abt last week.

(:

hmm yup.

found out tat im kinda close with those riders in my store.

tgt with jun and nina lah.

and oso im close to sahhidah too.

i can talk and click with all of them well.

but now i think i got a prob here.

there is a conflict or misunderstanding between (jun and nina) and sahhidah.

sahhidah told me everything wat happened between her and (jun and nina).

but jun and nina nv sae anything abt sahhidah.

so den i oso dont wana ask jun and nina.

if they wana tell me they will do so.

den i will give my opinions.

(:

hmm.

gg out with those riders is fun.

they are jokers lor.

can reallie laugh till peng de lor.

but eveytime gg out with them is late in the midnight.

so cant reallie laugh very loud.

LOL.

=D

05022007 monday-

reached sch.

checked my email.

coz 3 dae nv check le.

22 new mails.

wah~

damn long nv happen le lor.

haa.

its actually quite a good way to communicate with my jies.

lol.

den aft sch.

met june at srg.

had dinner

yup.

went to a salon there~!!

thanks june for acc me till so late!!

danny too!

haha!!

=D

i've got my new hairstyle and my new hair colour~!!

kinda nice and damn satisfied with it!!

happie!
=))

nice?

hee.

=p

its late le.

wana slp liao.

nights~!!

(: